Sometimes some down time is the best way to spend time

So as I promised myself, I was back at the gym this week and doing it properly. I didn’t get to every class because I have 3 kids and they have a better social life than me. Most night I need a stiff drink after me and their Dad have played taxi for them.

Anyway I did suspension on Tuesday and even with a couple weeks away it felt good, I even managed some of the floor work and got in to the plank posy for a spit second!!! I ran on Wednesday well ish. Me and my PT did 2.5mile in about 45 mins. Got to beat that next week. Then this morning a really surprised myself. Insanity just the 30 min class. Not only did I keep up BUT I managed to do most of the class without replacing much. I DID BURPEES the smallest ones in the world but without a step. I did them putting my hands on the floor!!!!!!!

It’s pretty safe to say that I am for one pleased with myself. I am glad that I gave myself that sulking time because it proved that I didn’t really have anything to sulk about. But without that time I probably would never have realised how far I have come. Or noticed how big my favourite gym top has become. It really is time to find a new favourite and bin or down grade to after a night shift top, not to be seen outside.

Onward and up wards now. I have my plan for between now and Christmas. I am really luck that my PT is being lead by the what I want to do. I think I have gotten a bit bored of going into the gym.  Running out side is so more satisfying that pretending to ski, row or walk up hill no where fast! I just need to stop being bothered about people seeing me. Most of the time I can put myself in a bubble a the gym and get on with it. But outside I still feel a bit venerable. When thinking about it. The network rail workers really don’t care that much about a fat stranger running, and I will think about it longer than they would.

So I am sat here watching people sleep having tucked them all up in bed and getting paid for it. Feeling pretty proud of myself. With no snacks to keep me going over night. Because I don’t need them. Let’s see that is still true when I get hangery at 3.30. For the first time In a while I really feel that I CAN DO THIS.