We all have to start some where

Right! This is all new to me, and I mean all of it. Blogging, running and trying hard not to be fat anymore. I am finding it hard. YES, YES and YES.

So are you sticking round for my story? Well if so here goes, excuse the waffle.

I am a very very over weight Mum of 3. I can't blame having the kids for my weight, they have never force fed me in their life's. It me all me and the crisps, chocolate, pop and massive social anxiety. It was easier to stay in and eat, then go out and meet people. The only person to blame for the way I am is me.  Now most people will not know how bigger step saying that last sentence was.

When ever you speak to people about why they want to loose weight, its always the smallest thing that kicks it off. For me that was a photo. Yes I had my GP telling me to loose weight. Infact he refused to treat me for muscle pain until I had. But that is another story for another time. Anyway this photo was last year in Scotland. Sat on a bench with my Hubby. OMG. I looked at thought get your act together women. Came home and join a gym. Hints for if you are joint a gym. Go and look, speak to people don't go for the cheapest or the most popular. I picked a local amazing friendly gym, and I mean everyone was friendly. Maybe it me but after looking round a big name gym, where I totally felt out of place. This place felt amazing and still does.

So I joined the gym. Brought new gym stuff, (all very Margot from the Good Life) and off I went. Did I think it would be easy? Hell yeah.
Did I think it would be Fun? Hell yeah.
It was neither. Walking on a treadmill for 1/2 hour at a time. Was boring. I also stupidly thought the weight would drop off. Some of it did but a year on the rest is still here. But 1/2 hour on a tread mill who was I kidding.

A few week in a was offered a free personal training session. Sod it, it's free. I knew the PT and thought it would be a walk in the park. But this bloke knew I wasn't pushing myself and could so a hell of a lot more. I couldn't walk for 3 days after an hour with him. The funny thing was the only thing that helped with the stiffness was more excerise. Seeing what I could do made me sign up for 1 PT session a week. After a few week my PT said he had a business partner who was also a PT wanted to work with me. Now as fab as this bloke was, looking back now he would have not got me to where I am.

Where am I now? Not where I thought I would be. Why because I haven't worked as hard as I could have, and its hard than it looks. Yes you can join a gym. Yes you can work out. But when you go from nothing it bloody hard work, both mentally and physically.

So why after a year I have started to write this blog? For a number of reasons.
1 Because I hate it when people plaster every gym trip, run and second of excerise. I need somewhere that I can show what I have achieved. Where I can be a bore.
2. I thought I would sign up for Total Warrior a 12k obstacle course. Again thinking that it would be easy. So times you never learn.
3. So I can see what I have achieved. Having low self-esteem, reassurance is massive for me. This way my I can look back and see what I have done.
4. To show people that it doesn't matter where you start as long as you do, if you want to. Your mind set is everything.

So 6 months in to once a week with a PT.  2 weeks into Total Warrior Training and I have finally started doing group classes at the gym. It's starting to sink in that I need to get my act together and fast. 8 weeks till warrior.

This is not just going to be about my training, I am going to waffle about me, life and what makes me tick. I hope you stick around.