Sometimes a pep talk and being called amazing works!

So it has been a few days since my last blog. I have written this one 5 different ways, and it just didn't work. I was trying to say how cross I was with myself. It turns out that I just needed a bit of perspective.

I had a spring in my step last Thursday, Friday and by Saturday it had sprung. I had plans for 3 mile walk run. That didn't happen. I got up at 11.30 and stayed in my PJs all day. Then I had an early night for warrior training on Sunday. I did also get though 9 units of  NVQ work.

Now 3 weeks into training and I have not had to nag myself up and out for bed once. That when it sort of went down hill. Up and out the house just after 9am. Brisk walk to warm up and the off to a lamppost jog. NOPE not a chance. I tried and tried but I couldn't get a rhythm and I couldn't lift my legs up and my back joined in the protest too. 30 minutes later I was at the wood. This was when I started to get frustrated it took me 10 mintues longer than last time, and last time I had to climb over a tree. I got to where we were meeting, I kept moving. Up hills and back down again, Once we all met up. I had already worked out what we were going to do. Up a steep hill with a log and a parter and back down again. Then back up and down on your own. I only managed once with log and mate and once on my own. I grumbled all day about it. I felt like I had let myself down. Didn't try hard enough. I didn't t even try to keep up with the bunch from the gym on the way home, and that took me 35 mintues.

Now I say I only manage the hill twice, but this is were a bit of perspective was needed. That did come from a good friend and my PT. Yes Yes I had to be told twice. They said look at it this way, a few weeks ago you wouldn't have even tried. They were right! I wouldn't, let alone walk the mile and a bit to get there and home again.

Because I didn't feel like I had done enough Sunday morning. I made my daughter walk to cub and home. I was determined to push though my weak back and make up a bit of lost ground from the day before.

Tuesday I tried a suspension or TRX, that doesn't sound quite so fifty shades. Can't say I love it but I didn't totally hate it. Also this morning I found out why I have zero energy. I woke up with a sore throat, sore ears and a cough. It also explained my weak back. When I am run down, thats the bit that notices first.

 On top of a cold I had a maths exam this morning. I hosnestly thought I would give circuits a miss. Kids came home from school, drove me mad, so circuits seamed like the easy option. It was in tonight's class that I reaslised that I am doing so much more. Not just squats as a modification. I tried to do walk outs. Back wasn't to keen but I tried and I moved forward and backwards a bit. I also manage to do a low plank and mountain climbers.

So all in all I am feeling a bit better mentally, and I am starting to realise so much of what I think I can't to is confidence not physical. Do I still think I am going to get thought the whole of  warrior? No I am going to make a total fool of myself. But I just to make sure I feel a proper idiot I am thinking of doing a 10k in October and it not a flat one either.