I beat the hill!!!

So I went back to the hill. The hill that beat me on Sunday. The hill that has put me in a bad mood all week. The hill that was a hell of a lot steeper than I remember. I did think for a second. Yeah you did it twice lets go for a jog instead. But honestly I knew I wasn't getting out of this. Think my PT was a bit surprised at how steep the will was, not that she showed it. She was going to make me do it with a log as well but she didn't push that one. You know with creepy crawlies and all. I was asked how many times I wanted to go up and down. This is were the mind games start. I had a number, she had a number and neither of us wanted to go first But, really unless my number was bigger than her it was never going to be my number. So my PT picked an odd one 5, I picked 4. What's funny is that I alway have to go first and my number is never as high, I smell a rat! Now I am not OCD but i do like even numbers. That meant I had to go up one more. So 6 was todays magic number. 

Off up the hill I went. Then it hit me. It wasn't that I couldn't do it, it was lack of confidence. What if I fall, what if I fall and get impaled on a tree. I do watch far to much casualty. Fat girl trying to get fit in the woods, gets impaled on tree. It writes its self. Anyway, it's s a bit slippy on way up, with the pine needles, pine cones and sand. It not much better in the way down. Half way up the roots and trees start. Thats when I start to bottle it. Yes I did ask for a helicopter and no I didn't get one. I also knew that I had to get myself up. No one could help me. Not because I was stubborn because I had 3 choices, Stay there forever. Fall down and end up in a BBC Drama, or move myself. So I moved myself. Every time I got to the same spot I froze. So 5 times later my PT said to scramble up it and use my hands. Up until then I had gotten up just on my feet pull up on trees. My 4th time was 1 min 23ish, my 5th 1 min 07. At that point I wanted under 1 min. So off I went. I got to my problem it and I hit the ground and scrambled, hit the top and found my finishing tree. Not a chance of being under 1 min. Not scrambling like a offa. Then my PT said 58.23 seconds. I did it. I showed that hill.